No one would ever accuse me of being particularly patient. I want what I want, when I want it, which is usually NOW. But today has been full of reminders that the big changes in life are usually worth waiting for.
Porty and I are in the process of looking for an apartment. Really, are there many tasks in life more daunting than house-hunting? The searching, the calling and emailing, the not hearing back, the hearing back, the arranging viewings, the incredible disappointment when you realize that 550 square feet is really damn small.
Along with the ups and downs hunting, I’ve been sort of emotionally distancing myself from our current apartment…it just doesn’t feel like home anymore. I may not know when I will cease to live here, but it’s sooner rather than later. The impatient girl inside of me has already moved out, mentally.
Sort of like when you know you need to break up with someone. Consciously or subconsciously, you build some distance. It makes saying goodbye easier when the time comes. And I’ve been living in my current residence for nearly three years. That’s a big breakup.
That said, I’ve been pretty flat, pretty blah, and very anxious. Coupled with a mini-cold in my midweek, the past few days have resulted in little exercise and unnecessary snacking. I’ve had to do my fair share in “recovery” for my…shall we say…caloric damage.
But not to fret. Today has been a great recharge Sunday. I went to a group Pilates class with a Twitter friend (more on that later) and I’m trying my best to reframe this move from a gigantic, looming poop storm to a real potential to discover a great new living situation. While I don’t know WHEN it will happen, I do know that it will happen in it’s own time. Rather than my time. Dang it.
I’m also watching football which makes me think of the fall weather which makes me think of comfort food (that won’t break the caloric bank). I couldn’t decide on a salad or soup for lunch so I combined the two.
With every “last chance” food in the fridge
Like steamed broccoli, jalapenos, brown rice, and kidney beans.
And garnished with goat cheese. Because I love it.
Cheers to patience.